Author: Mommy

I was debating whether or not to write on here again…it’s been quite some time…September to be exact.  In September we found out that our FET did not take, a negative pregnancy test and tears were shed.  After taking a few weeks off to clear my head and speaking with our doctor, we decided to do another cycle, this time a fresh cycle.  Fresh cycle meaning hormone injections, egg retrieval, and embryo transfer.  The cycle was successful in that we were lucky enough to have two beautiful embryos to transfer…unfortunately neither one took.  Another voicemail message from the Cornell nurse “I’m so sorry Cecelia but your beta test came back negative.”  To this day that voicemail,  the dreaded pregnancy results voicemail is always the hardest to listen to…because it’s either heads or tails.

After the bad news I have to admit I got very sad and depressed, every day felt like a struggle, I didn’t feel like myself.  Words can’t describe the heartache and sadness that I felt…still feel but I have to go on.  I told myself I was going to get through 2016 and the holidays, and then think about what next steps to take at the beginning of the new year.  So here we are…2017…new year…new possibilities.  I am taking the time to take care of myself and my health – going to the gym again, acupuncture, meditation and some dietary changes.  Hopefully we will try again in a few months with another FET…my last frozen embryo…perhaps my last chance through reproductive assistance.

I’m not giving up though and will continue on this journey, our journey, in hopes of holding you in my arms one day soon.

“Never give up hope…sometimes the most amazing things happen when you least expect it.”

It’s been two days since our, our should I say “your” embryo transfer on Sunday, September 11, 2016. I couldn’t sleep the night before in fear of the embryo not surviving the thaw…but luckilly all went well and the transfer was successful.  We were originally scheduled to be in the city between 2-2:30 PM that afternoon and we had the babysitter all lined up to stay home with your big sister and the puppies.  However, Mommy got a call from Cornell around 11:30 AM telling us that we needed to be down there by 1:15 PM.  Yikes!!!!  Being that we live about 45 miles outside of the city, traffic always being unpredictable, and the fact that we couldn’t be late…we had to leave ASAP.  Unfortunately the babysitter couldn’t arrive sooner so we took a family trip – Mommy, Daddy and Charlotte – into the city for the big day 🙂  You will soon realize that nothing ever goes as planned in the Grimm house, and there is NEVER a dull moment!  We arrived to New York Presbyterian with 15 minutes to spare and the process was quick and easy.  Now we wait…the longest 10 day wait ever.  Mommy has to go back to Cornell on Wednesday, September 21st for blood work to find out whether I am pregnant or not.  Each day we pray and hope that we will get favorable results.  In the meantime I am taking care of myself by resting when I can and taking my prenatal vitamins 🙂  Attached are some photos from your big day.  Love you Baby Grimm xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I say “Here We Go Again!” because this is now our third time trying to conceive a baby into the Grimm Family 🙂  As I embark on this journey, I am excited, scared, hopeful, and trying to remain positive.  It has been over two years since our last, and successful, IVF cycle.  Although not that long ago, it seems like an eternity, and I’ve forgotten the real struggle that many women, including myself, have had to face with infertility. As I sit in the waiting room of Dr. Rosenwaks office, I remember that infertility does not discriminate – not on age, race, ethnicity, religion…it effects us all.  This time though I sit and wait as a “Mommy” fortunate enough to have been blessed with a daughter, a healthy daughter by the name of Charlotte Grace.  This cycle is different…less pressure I suppose, and I have the knowledge that I can bear children…which was not a certainty last cycle.  This time is also less stressful because I am doing a “natural” cycle, no medicine to worry about and having frozen embryos eliminates the retrieval process.  So a huge sigh of relief on both of those factors.  With that being said, we are trying for Baby #2 in hopes of becoming a family of four, or should I say six with our fur babies 🙂  Above is a photo of the two embryos that we were able to freeze during my last cycle in February 2014. I am scheduled for the embryo transfer this Sunday, September 11th at Cornell in New York City.  I remain hopeful that one of these little “babies” will survive the thaw and result in pregnancy.  However, I am trying not to put all my “eggs” in one basket because I know the disappointment that goes along with an unsuccessful cycle, but I will do my best to remain positive despite keeping my expectations to a minimum.  More to come Baby Grimm xoxoxoxoxoxo